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Thursday, April 30, 2009

I found this on xanga:

Thursday, April 30, 2009

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I Forgive You Mom

I forgive you although you’ve never asked for my forgiveness.

I forgive you for cheating on dad and leaving him hurt. I forgive you for all the men you brought in and out of my life that were only using you. I forgive you for leaving me alone for days to take care of my newborn twin siblings when I was still too young to even take care of myself. I forgive you for never being able to sustain us because you were spending money to support your drug habit and your alcoholic boyfriends. I forgive you for allowing a man to use me. I forgive you for never being there for me when I cried myself to sleep. I forgive you for never showing me what a mother or wife is supposed to be. I forgive you for making it harder for me to trust people. I forgive you for all the times you told me you were going to change but didn’t. I forgive you for all of your broken promises. I forgive you that even to this day you don’t really care about me. I forgive you for causing me to wonder if you even love me. While this merely touches the surface of the things I have to forgive you for, I forgive you for everything.

Not only do I forgive you, but I thank you. I thank you because of all the things I have had to forgive you for, those are the very things that have made me the woman I am today. The pain you have brought me in my life has made me stronger and more independent. The struggles have made me wiser. It has made me realize the woman I want to be for myself, my future husband, and my future children. I also thank you for helping create the inscribable bond I now have with my brother and sister. I thank you for showing me that any obstacle I encounter can be overcame. Thank you for showing me that in the midst of sorrows I can find joy. Know that I will never be a woman like you because every single day, I will strive to be everything you never were.

I forgive you. I thank you. I still love you.

*This was difficult*

Chi was here @ 10:55 PM [ ]

It's time to be bold about who you really are.

You should understand that being different is fantastic. In fact, rejoice in all those things that make you different. Ultimately, it’s not how you look or what group you’re in that will determine your success in the world. I think you can carve new territory, you can do something completely out of the box, and if it is an act of love and goodness, it will be completely embraced---as bizarre as that may seem.

If you have faith in your real self, you’ll suffer less. You won’t waste valuable time that could be spent on more important things. There’s no time to waste. It’s time to be bold about who you really are.

Be passionate about what you do. ** MENTAL DISCIPLINE ** Stay true to yourself. Be confident. Pre-program your mind for success. Success is the best revenge. Remember everything about everyone. THINK before you SPEAK. and LISTEN carefully. Knowing yourself is the essence of being alive. If you have a goal, you can definitely accomplish it. You can do anything you set your mind to. Break through the barriers of pain, laziness, fear, and mediocrity. You have the power of free will. It is never too late to be the person you might have been.

Life is short.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dare to be different, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because when you look back someday, knowing you have no regrets it's going to be what makes you smile.
Have a good day!

Faith is the substance of all things hoped for. ** PHYSICAL DISCIPLINE ** Always act as if you are being videotaped. Always have good posture Pray (remember God) Read the news Take fish oil Constantly volunteer, do things, be active. Learn.

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.