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Thursday, April 30, 2009

I got mad at Dan yesterday because he wasn't being sensitive enough to me.

"I hope you are okay.. I just read you status :("

"I see the way you see things.. Except opposite. I do see where you are coming from that's how I am able to equally express my side of it. I feel like.. Just because its not your way you will downplay it and put the blame on me because of how I acted. I acted because how you acted.. I don't think that means I am insensitive. I am sensitive to your other needs and doesn't that count more? Just because I didn't see it you way this time.. I think its unfair for you to say that I don't understand you. I know I don't understand you like Xuan... But I do understand you better than any guy out there ever will. However though, I do hope you forgive me.. I know I can tease.. But it only means well and I want to make you laugh.. I'm not trying to get under your skin." - Dan's text

I don't agree that he understands me better than any guy out there ever will. Is this what he truly thinks and believes? He's got it all wrong. In my eyes, he is actually the opposite. I feel like Jeremy (and maybe Jesse) understood me way better than Dan ever will. Dan doesn't even try. Or maybe he does, but ironically, he is not even close to understanding the person that I am. If he truly understood me, simply, he would not be so damn stubborn. He wouldn't be even doing any of these things that get under my skin in the first place! You can think that I may have no sense of humor but that is not true at all. It's about wanting a boyfriend with maturity. Not someone who will always be goofy. There is a difference. There is a time and place for everything. But sadly, Dan doesn't understand that concept. And when we argue about these things, he thinks we are blowing it out of proportions. The truth of the matter is, it matters to me how my boyfriend is like. Heck, any girl would care about these things. All I am asking is for Dan to be more sensitive to my needs, and to try to understand that I am not joking all the time, is that so much to ask for?

Why has this intolerance been building up? I've been disappointed at different points throughout our relationship, but I don't always voice it of course. These are things that I EXPECT him to know, being a boyfriend, not everything should be spoonfed to you. I made the mistake of expecting him to know these simple boyfriend rules, I guess he doesn't because he is so stubborn and immature sometimes.

For example, I was disappointed yesterday at Wendy's when I fought to pay for myself, and he agreed to. When we got back to his apt, he turned on the AC despite knowing that I had been cold all day! The problem with Dan is that he doesn't read signs clearly at all. I'm not going to sit here and tell him everything he needs to know. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to know that you should be sensitive to your girlfriend's needs and there are certain expectations that he needs to meet up to, such as being a gentleman and not letting your girlfriend pay.

He's just done too many things to show me he doesn't care enough. Not working on working out to lose those extra pounds, not acquiesing to my requests of him dressing without his pants hanging low, not being sensitive enough to acquiese to my clear signs of disappointments. Maybe I need to know more psychology than I thought I did. Or maybe not. He's just difficult and stubborn. No wonder he's had such a hard time trying to find a girlfriend.

Chi was here @ 11:16 AM [ ]

It's time to be bold about who you really are.

You should understand that being different is fantastic. In fact, rejoice in all those things that make you different. Ultimately, it’s not how you look or what group you’re in that will determine your success in the world. I think you can carve new territory, you can do something completely out of the box, and if it is an act of love and goodness, it will be completely embraced---as bizarre as that may seem.

If you have faith in your real self, you’ll suffer less. You won’t waste valuable time that could be spent on more important things. There’s no time to waste. It’s time to be bold about who you really are.

Be passionate about what you do. ** MENTAL DISCIPLINE ** Stay true to yourself. Be confident. Pre-program your mind for success. Success is the best revenge. Remember everything about everyone. THINK before you SPEAK. and LISTEN carefully. Knowing yourself is the essence of being alive. If you have a goal, you can definitely accomplish it. You can do anything you set your mind to. Break through the barriers of pain, laziness, fear, and mediocrity. You have the power of free will. It is never too late to be the person you might have been.

Life is short.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dare to be different, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because when you look back someday, knowing you have no regrets it's going to be what makes you smile.
Have a good day!

Faith is the substance of all things hoped for. ** PHYSICAL DISCIPLINE ** Always act as if you are being videotaped. Always have good posture Pray (remember God) Read the news Take fish oil Constantly volunteer, do things, be active. Learn.

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.