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Sunday, April 12, 2009

If you could describe me in one word, what would it be? If you could describe me in more words, what would you say? Who do you see when you look at me? What have I been to you? What kind of soul do I exhibit? What potential do you see in me?

It's time for soul searching. It's time to delve deep into my inner essence and grab a hold of who I really am. I need to stop being afraid of choosing the path that is calling to me? I don't need to depend on anyone. And I most definitely do not need to make anyone happy but myself. Do it for yourself. You can do it. Delve deep and search for yourself. It's about damn time to be bold about who you really are.

Most people, when they know they are going down the wrong route, such as college for example, already know what they long to do. They already know what their passion is. The problem for me is I don't know what my passion is. I don't have something I can say I am extremely good at. And it's killing me inside. Everything has been so wrong. I have the determination. But no direction.

Wherein lies my problem right now. I chose to explore nursing, believing that it was finally the right choice for me. I finally had a direction. A possible career to pursue and to dream big about. As soon as I chose nursing, I did as much as I could to start exploring it, getting field experience in it, being fully determined that I would not give up no matter what obstacles I face. It's been two months since I've started all of this. And it has been two long grueling months of struggling to be happy with the "nursing assisting" jobs that I am holding currently. I never thought I would end up this way. Maybe nursing isn't for me after all. But it is so disappointing to come to this realization. It is so disappointing to waste time.

I tried so hard too. I tried so hard to be positive about it. And to not give up. Which is why I am in so much denial that nursing might not be right for me. It's wonderful that I am not easily giving up, but it's important to know when to stop when it is not right for me. So is it what I want to pursue? By quitting these two jobs right now, I would be declaring that I am no longer pursuing nursing. And I am just not ready to do that. I am not ready to declare that nursing isn't right for me? Until I find another path? Another goal?

Chi was here @ 5:01 PM [ ]

It's time to be bold about who you really are.

You should understand that being different is fantastic. In fact, rejoice in all those things that make you different. Ultimately, it’s not how you look or what group you’re in that will determine your success in the world. I think you can carve new territory, you can do something completely out of the box, and if it is an act of love and goodness, it will be completely embraced---as bizarre as that may seem.

If you have faith in your real self, you’ll suffer less. You won’t waste valuable time that could be spent on more important things. There’s no time to waste. It’s time to be bold about who you really are.

Be passionate about what you do. ** MENTAL DISCIPLINE ** Stay true to yourself. Be confident. Pre-program your mind for success. Success is the best revenge. Remember everything about everyone. THINK before you SPEAK. and LISTEN carefully. Knowing yourself is the essence of being alive. If you have a goal, you can definitely accomplish it. You can do anything you set your mind to. Break through the barriers of pain, laziness, fear, and mediocrity. You have the power of free will. It is never too late to be the person you might have been.

Life is short.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dare to be different, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because when you look back someday, knowing you have no regrets it's going to be what makes you smile.
Have a good day!

Faith is the substance of all things hoped for. ** PHYSICAL DISCIPLINE ** Always act as if you are being videotaped. Always have good posture Pray (remember God) Read the news Take fish oil Constantly volunteer, do things, be active. Learn.

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.