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Monday, February 1, 2010

Babe,

I've become so depressed that I think I need to take time away from everything for a little while. This has nothing to do with you. I've been feeling so beaten down and discouraged from this entire job hunt, job search process that it's eating away at my soul. I don't know who I am anymore. And what I stand for. I don't have any motivation to move forward because I feel like I've tried so hard. It's just not working...

I just wish I knew what career and occupation was right for me, and then move forward from there. At this point, I feel so behind and so lost that I can't even focus my energy on a relationship. I hope you understand where I am coming from. This is all very hard for me. And I want you to be happy. I don't want you to be unhappy seeing your girlfriend like this. I need time away. Whatever I do. I would only want to be in a relationship where I can make my boyfriend proud, and happy. I don't feel that I can do that if I am constantly lost, and am dragging you down. I don't want to be the person that complains day in and day out. Or bring stress into the relationship. What I need right now is space so I can figure things out.

I need space, time, and self-reflection.

Chi was here @ 10:05 PM [ ]

It's time to be bold about who you really are.

You should understand that being different is fantastic. In fact, rejoice in all those things that make you different. Ultimately, it’s not how you look or what group you’re in that will determine your success in the world. I think you can carve new territory, you can do something completely out of the box, and if it is an act of love and goodness, it will be completely embraced---as bizarre as that may seem.

If you have faith in your real self, you’ll suffer less. You won’t waste valuable time that could be spent on more important things. There’s no time to waste. It’s time to be bold about who you really are.

Be passionate about what you do. ** MENTAL DISCIPLINE ** Stay true to yourself. Be confident. Pre-program your mind for success. Success is the best revenge. Remember everything about everyone. THINK before you SPEAK. and LISTEN carefully. Knowing yourself is the essence of being alive. If you have a goal, you can definitely accomplish it. You can do anything you set your mind to. Break through the barriers of pain, laziness, fear, and mediocrity. You have the power of free will. It is never too late to be the person you might have been.

Life is short.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dare to be different, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because when you look back someday, knowing you have no regrets it's going to be what makes you smile.
Have a good day!

Faith is the substance of all things hoped for. ** PHYSICAL DISCIPLINE ** Always act as if you are being videotaped. Always have good posture Pray (remember God) Read the news Take fish oil Constantly volunteer, do things, be active. Learn.

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.